Anyway, just in case someone is reading this... I am back now. I have been really sick and haven't even felt like writing. But I am feeling a little better (knock on wood) and hopefully I am recovering. I have been kinda down here lately. This is usually my favorite time of the year, but since Mom died I have been sorta depressed by Christmas. I have found that you have to find little things to keep your spirits up. Christmas spirit for me now is the smiles of the little ones, the gift wrapping, playing all the songs I heard when I was little, and remembering all the Christmases I was able to share with my Mom. I cry a lot more now but I know that she wants us to be happy. So I am doing my best to keep cheery. I am pretty good at playing the part of the cheerful Christmas fanatic. I can't hide the fact that I love it all. The lights, the decorations, the trees, and wreathes, the presents all wrapped up pretty, the music, the food!!!! and candy! I plan on putting on about ten pounds this winter! Can't wait to eat some of Grandmommy's goodies!!! And oh man do I want some sausage balls! I already had my white fudge covered Oreo's! Tee-hee! Yes, you have to find joy in all the little things around you! I am so happy for my family! But I can't get into all of that right now! Some surprises must be kept secret! My little sister is going to China this summer! So excited for her!
I have a wonderful family who loves me! I have the BEST man in the world and one day in the future when we can afford a nice wedding he is going to marry me! I am so blessed in so many ways! And I am going to focus on those blessings from here on out!!! Maybe you don't believe in God, Buddha, faeries, or Santa... It doesn't matter. But Know this: we were all put on this earth for a reason! We were put here to LOVE! Love your soul mate or love your friends or your fur babies! Or maybe you dedicate yourself to mother nature! It doesn't matter who, just love someone and dedicate yourself and life to that person or pet or place or thing! See how happy you can be when you realize that all of this material stuff is silly. Money is the root of all evil! So if you don't have enough of it right now, (like me) don't let it get you down! Just think how silly it is to let something so worthless take up all your time and effort! Money has no worth. It is the dumbest thing on this planet. Just think about it, why do we have money? what idiot came up with the idea that we should base our existence on little pieces of paper that represent a stash of gold somewhere? God and Mother Nature sure the hell didn't say it was a good idea!!! Don't stress! Just LOVE!!!! And I know I sound like a flower child right now but guess what? Living life with an open mind and an open heart is the way I want to live. I think everybody should give it a try!!! And before I go, here is some holiday spirit for you!!!
"No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Every one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And Love would never end.
This is my grown up Christmas list."
"Although it's been said
Many times, many ways
Merry Christmas to you!!!"
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